It has been a while!!!!!

Here I go again.  Things on one front seem to be better and on another more things to worry about. I know in my heart all things are in God's hands and I am trying to continue to work on putting this knowledge into action and trying not to dwell on that which I have no control. And I think that was rambling. There seems to be so many things going on and so many of my friends dealing with hard things, losses, sadness, stresses and all kinds of YUCKY adult issues. Oh to go back 20+ years with the knowledge I have now. I am trying to find my way and listen to God and where he is leading me.  I know I am not alone in my struggles but sometimes it is so hard to try to convey the depths of my feelings. There are so many out there making snap judgements of others when they have no knowledge of their path. Until you have walked a mile in someone else's shoes, you have no right to pass judgement. We all carry our burdens with us daily and how we choose to present those to others can make us or break us.

I have so many regrets. I am trying to work through those and learn to see myself the way my God and savior sees me.  I am a child of God and a person of worth.  WORTH---preposition 1.good or important enough to justify 2. Having a value of, or equal in value to, as in money 3. Having property to the value or amount of.   noun-- 4. Excellence of character or quality as commanding esteem   5. Usefulness or importance, as to the world, to a person, or for a purpose  6. Value, as in money  7. A quantity of something of a specified value  8. Wealth; riches; property or possessions.   There are many meanings behind a word which is used so carelessly.  And trying to see my worth as God sees it has been a very emotional undertaking.

I also know if I can work on the physical issues in my own life, where I seem to continually struggle it would make me feel better.  I get a streak of motivation and then I find it waning.  If I could keep the motivation in check I feel this would be an accomplishment for me.

Alas I ramble.  I will continue to struggle with Life As I Know It.