The End of 2013!!!

Wow!!! Here we are at the close of the year and what a year it has been. I am not making any resolutions this year. I have several areas in my life which I am going work and and goals I have in mind for myself.  I am going to work on my faith, family, fitness and friends. I look forward to
continue to watch my nephew grown into the fine young man he is becoming. I can't believe he is 6. My brother would be so proud of him, it still hurts my heart so much to not have him here with us. It just isn't fair but life is not fair.  Another goal is to work on this blog more and to share things I am doing and loving!!!  I am thinking I need a list of things for 2014 but I am not ready to hit publish on it right now. I need to work on an inspiration board also. Lots of things to do!!!!
I guess this is life as I know it for the end of 2013!! Hope your 2014 is all you want it to be and more!!

Back Again!!!!

Well here goes. It has again been a while since I have made an entry. Not because I haven't thought about it or had things on my mind that needed to be said. I have but haven't really known where to begin.
I am working on renewing my commitments to health and fitness and moving onward and downward. My saying lately has been "Eat it, own it and move on!!"  I have been the person in the past if I started out not making the better choice I would just say oh I will do better tomorrow. And let's just face it, sometimes tomorrow never comes. I need to make tomorrow today and enjoy the present.
I am going to make a conscious effort to check in here more often as I have big changes coming in my life and they seem exciting for the time being.
Until next time I will continue with Life As I Know It!!!

It has been a while!!!!!

Here I go again.  Things on one front seem to be better and on another more things to worry about. I know in my heart all things are in God's hands and I am trying to continue to work on putting this knowledge into action and trying not to dwell on that which I have no control. And I think that was rambling. There seems to be so many things going on and so many of my friends dealing with hard things, losses, sadness, stresses and all kinds of YUCKY adult issues. Oh to go back 20+ years with the knowledge I have now. I am trying to find my way and listen to God and where he is leading me.  I know I am not alone in my struggles but sometimes it is so hard to try to convey the depths of my feelings. There are so many out there making snap judgements of others when they have no knowledge of their path. Until you have walked a mile in someone else's shoes, you have no right to pass judgement. We all carry our burdens with us daily and how we choose to present those to others can make us or break us.

I have so many regrets. I am trying to work through those and learn to see myself the way my God and savior sees me.  I am a child of God and a person of worth.  WORTH---preposition 1.good or important enough to justify 2. Having a value of, or equal in value to, as in money 3. Having property to the value or amount of.   noun-- 4. Excellence of character or quality as commanding esteem   5. Usefulness or importance, as to the world, to a person, or for a purpose  6. Value, as in money  7. A quantity of something of a specified value  8. Wealth; riches; property or possessions.   There are many meanings behind a word which is used so carelessly.  And trying to see my worth as God sees it has been a very emotional undertaking.

I also know if I can work on the physical issues in my own life, where I seem to continually struggle it would make me feel better.  I get a streak of motivation and then I find it waning.  If I could keep the motivation in check I feel this would be an accomplishment for me.

Alas I ramble.  I will continue to struggle with Life As I Know It.

Really??

I am not even sure where to begin.  I am trying to work on me, focus on the now and be present in my reality when all I really want to do is stick my head in the sand. The hits just seem to keep coming and I am trying to hold my head above water.

I am however going to continue on and persevere.

Uncertainty

I guess this post title sums my life up in one word.  Nothing is ever certain and I am really trying to work toward embracing changes and using them to better myself and those around me. Not that I like change because I do not at all. That being said I am still in a place where I never thought I would be in my life and thinking of attempting things I would not have thought before.

This in itself is a jump for me.  With fear, self doubt, and apprehension I vow to move on and move toward those things good, positive, and productive in my life.  I am blessed with a wonderful family and network of friends who are really family also and have been there for me and my family in the darkest of days.  I am trying to remember each and every day that I am a child of God and a person of worth.